To Obey is better than sacrifice

“Does the Lord delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices
    as much as in obeying the Lord?
To obey is better than sacrifice,
    and to heed is better than the fat of rams.

Some thing I believe from the depths of my heart, the desire for God over us is to obey him. I know this sounds pretty common for many Christians to say all the time. But, i know, its painful. Its a total struggle between choosing myself and God.

And i learned that the Love of God is only completed when it is resulted in my obedience towards God. Which means, i love God too, however its a love than is higher than loving myself. So the change in my life from following Jesus, is the completion of God's love in my life that is taking effect.

And i admit, its painful and sad just as Abraham had to made the sacrifice of his son Issac... I too had to sacrifice my Issac. In which that still remains in me, for Abraham, it happened for a day. For me that remains till today.

But yet, i want to obey God. Because i choose to love Him more than myself. My life is nothing compared to Jesus Christ. He died for me, i think its my turn to return that love as well.