Tired

I've been in and out hospital everyday. Spending time with my dad and family. It's kind of tiring. Almost all my family members are sick. Had to deal with work and church. Usually mornings I am energetic, now I couldn't even find strength to go gym. Also with my shoulder injury.

I hope to get a good rest. That is the inner rest

Dad's cancer

Today my dad is admitted to hospital due a kind of blood cancer. And I simply pray God will do his work. Have  not come to a point to know of what to do and feel or even think, but surely to be mentally prepared.

How fragile life can be...

Choosing right companies

As I am preparing for the young people session on Nov. Basically the outline is something that I apply in my life and speaks to me personally.

Right company and friends
1. Builds our relationship with God
2. Builds our character
3. Builds our boundaries

Wrong company and friends
1. Destroys our relationship with God
2. Destroys our character
3. Destroys our boundaries

Fear of the Lord and love

Was reminded in proverbs 15:16-17

Better a little with the fear of the Lord
Than great wealth with turmoil

Better a meal of vegetables where there is love
Than a fatten calf with hatred

I wish I could live a life that fears God and peace loving relationships with the people around me.

But I know I am sinful man and it's not easy to live in peace despite all efforts made.

Faith

Faith without deeds is presumptuous faith.

Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.

And without faith it is impossible to please God,  because anyone who comes to him must believe he exist and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.

Faith is base on the promise of God for the glory of God.

Faith with out the promise of God but for the glory is presumptuous faith. Faith on the promise of God but not for the glory of God is also presumptuous faith.

The promise of God is that he is faithful, he is with us, and he loves us, for those who believe in him shall have external life. John 3:16

Probs 9

A man who fears God is a wise man.
Verse 8 to 11.
A wise man is open to rebuke
A wise man is teachable
A wise man is obedient

The fear of the Lord is beginning of wisdom, but fools despise wisdom and discipline.

God's invitation of love

Provbs 8 : 17
I love those who love me,
and those who seek me find me.

I thank God for his invitation of love, that when I seek him of love him, he will always be there. Especially these period with so many difficulties that he has deliver me from. All the relational aspects and ministry work.

Am reminded about his word where he promise to us. =) we draw near to him, he surely draw near to us. He will protect and honor, he will reveal himself and satisfy my true need.
 
1 sam 2:30
But now the Lord declares:‘Far be it from me! Those who honor me I will honor, but those who despise me will be disdained.

Psalms 91:14 - 16
“Because he loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
He will call upon me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
With long life will I satisfy him
and show him my salvation.

Thanking God for the prayer meeting

Brought Ai wei and Jeffery to the prayer meeting although it doesn't make sense because they don't know Christ. Yet however Jeffery shown keen interest to be prayer for over his sins, and that he believed there is God. Thank God for this wonderful work in Jeffery life.

I hope to bring them to our young people ministry and that they will receive Jesus as their Lord. And also hoping that Lovell (god daugther) will grow up in a Christian environment and stay close to God.

I pray that God's hand is with them.

Proverbs 6

2 things I learn from provb 6 today.
1. To learn from the ant
Their diligent to work without leader that signify their unity.
They work for legacy for the next season, also their next generation even if they do not eat the fruits of their Labour.
They live wisely.

2. A man who doesn't walk in the discipline with the Lord comes with a big danger to fall on the hands of a bad women and lead astray.

Back to Blog

Thank God for my new note 3. Hoping to continue pending my journey with God. Much have happened. I believe it's good journey them. With the super convenient note 3 apps. Haha I'm going it more frequent and also a means to do more memory verses.

Let's do it again!

To Obey is better than sacrifice

“Does the Lord delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices
    as much as in obeying the Lord?
To obey is better than sacrifice,
    and to heed is better than the fat of rams.

Some thing I believe from the depths of my heart, the desire for God over us is to obey him. I know this sounds pretty common for many Christians to say all the time. But, i know, its painful. Its a total struggle between choosing myself and God.

And i learned that the Love of God is only completed when it is resulted in my obedience towards God. Which means, i love God too, however its a love than is higher than loving myself. So the change in my life from following Jesus, is the completion of God's love in my life that is taking effect.

And i admit, its painful and sad just as Abraham had to made the sacrifice of his son Issac... I too had to sacrifice my Issac. In which that still remains in me, for Abraham, it happened for a day. For me that remains till today.

But yet, i want to obey God. Because i choose to love Him more than myself. My life is nothing compared to Jesus Christ. He died for me, i think its my turn to return that love as well.

Successors

From the story of Cain and his descendents, one after another is full of sin and perverse that our current civilization mirrors. The violence and sexual media and lifestyle that we have today. With much wickedness and arrogance, we even boast about such things.

But for those who follows the way of Abel and seek God in all his ways, will always find mercy and life. In opinion, Abel tended flocks and gave the first borns to God as an offering because he probably knew God also killed the animals as an atonement for Adam and Eve's sin. I believed Adam followed what God did, and love God. Hence gaining favor from God.

Yet however, he was killed and murdered by his very own brother who he grew up with. How amazing one can kill another who they live together with in the their lives. This comes as a warning that such hatred and murderous intend can be anywhere, any time and anyone.

However the good news is that, Seth came in replacement with Abel which is Adam-like. Probably a man closest to God, from him came Enosh which means weakness. Where we come before GOD in our weaknesses and utter worship. The pioneer worshipers of God came from Enosh and thats what we need in the current day. Not a succession of economy, politics, power or wealth, but a succession of Godly people, Godly Worshipers.

Prayer:
Lord, i pray that my life and my weaknesses may find favor in your eyes, that your strength be made perfect in me. That i will live my life as a worshiper to you, a Godly man after your heart. I want to find favor in your eyes and acceptance in my righteous offerings to you. Humble my heart in the area of my sin, and let confess my sins to you all the days of life, that i maybe continually purify by you.

In Jesus Holy and merciful name,
Amen.

SIN

Had begin my new journey of bible study on Genesis with BSF and to do my own study on the 2 books of Kings before i proceed back to the letters of Paul. Haven been able to journal down my thpughts for a while due to some work and struggles. But lets continue what I have started.

A lesson from Eve on how SIN happened

1. Eve paid attention to listen to the devil
2. She stir her self desires by looking at the forbidden fruit.
3. She took the fruit.
4. She ate the fruit.
5. And than she gave Adam the fruit to eat.

We must cut sin off as early as possible before it accumulates and spreads on to others as well, the further it goes the harder to rewind. We need to learn to be aware of the voices of the devil, and remove it at once. The first step of mistake that Eve took that eventually lead her to death. And we must learn to trust and obey God in loyalty and not to listen to the devils lies.

Things that i've learned so far from the first 3 chapters:

1. I am made to enjoy a good relationship with God, not out of obligation.
2. God gave all of us responsibilities like work, family and church.
3. It takes the temper and self desire to make us fall into sin.

Somethings that i've learn from my mentor recently that i want to apply deeply into my life:

1. Have faith to surrander 
2. The stillness to know God
3. The silence to hear God
4. And the sensitivity to obey

Personal prayer:

Lord, i want to obey you all the days of my life. To enjoy your presence and love for me. Help me avoid sin and resist temptation whenever it happens. Allow me to recognize the voice of the devil, and avoid and stop listening to him at all cost. Give me the heart to seek first the Kingdom of God, and these things will be given unto me.

In Jesus name, Amen.

2 Cor 8

Things to learn from this chapter

• We always give testimonies of other churches that can encourage our own church
• We encourage our people to take a step further to give by grace
• We encourage Gods people to complete what they start doing with consistency in love.
• It is a greater blessing to give than receive even in poverty
• Entrust finance to people who are trustworthy and in track record in their service , respected and look up by the churches and people. 

Memory Verses

2 Cor 8:9
For you know the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, though he is rich, yet for your sakes he became poor, so that you through his poverty becomes rich.

Matt 20:26-28
..Instead, whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, and whoever wants to become first must be your slave, just as the Son of Man did not come to be served but to serve, and gave his life as a ransom to many.

Tablet of The Heart

From Devotions chapter 3 and 4

I have a hard time going through these 2 chapters, took me almost 5 days of reading again and again. Repeatingly asking the Holy Spirit to teach me and guide me before moving on to the later chapters.

2 Cor 3:2-3
You yourselves are our letter, written on our hearts, known and read by everybody. You show you are a letter from Christ, the result of our ministry, written not with ink but with the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of human hearts.

The ministry of God, the church of God is not something that can be done by platforms, programs of in any form of organization. But however, till today, like the world, we often fall into the trap of developing structure, rules, guidelines and education. And we always miss the point. Transformation can only be done and enabled by the Holy Spirit for it is by the Spirit that lives can be changed. In today's world, many people are trapped by the law, even Christians. The law they so depend on brings death. But those who are lead by the Spirit receives life.

In Moses time, people followed the tablets of stone which they couldn't fulfill and they died. By now we keep dying with Jesus as we live, that He is revealed in us through our life. Where our life is the very evident of the letter written in our hearts by the Holy Spirit. So if I am not living out the life of Christ, it only means that i have not die to myself with Jesus at all. Than there is no room for Spiritual parenting at all.

And Spiritual parenting is this, is carrying the letter of Christ in our hearts and life. That the next generation of Christians can see in us, thus following our examples as disciple of Jesus. We need to understand that as Christians, we are Jesus representatives. As mentors, we are Jesus to them. To guide them and leading them into maturity in Christ.

I don't think we need to be strong that we can be used by God. But rather in our weakness where God is revealed through His mighty work that people see God, thus believing and trusting God in their own lives.

Pointers of Spiritual Parenting

• It is not a platform or program, it is a life imparting ministry. Godly principles, values etc
• No one grows effectively without a mentor and guidance. 
• People needs to be disciple and grow to maturity. And much attention is required until maturity stage.
•  Mentoring is representing Jesus himself, absolutely important.
• The love and grace of God must be evident in the mentors life.
• Young believers cannot know and hear God by themselves, they need help and guidance. 
• Investment in spiritual lives is worth all the trouble and pain and time.
• Is like a father taking care of a son, like a mother giving attention to a baby.
• Like the world, children without parents are often handicap and lost. 
• When leaders of the church do not disciple Christians themselves, the church is malfunction already.

2 Cor 4

Therefore, as disciple of Christ, we renounced secret and shameful ways, to death of our past that is dead. Now we only share and proclaim Christ Jesus as it is without blemish before God himself. We do what we do for Jesus sake, and is made to suffering with Jesus, that others may benefit.

We speak by what we believe, through the leading of the Holy Spirit, and by the power of transformation done in our lives by the Holy Spirit. And that is true life that people need, and it is only by the grace of God. And because of this life, people can benefit and give thanks. The life of God spreads, and sin also spreads and destroy lives.

As Paul has written, the troubles and pain we go through for Christ is totally worth it. The rewards in heaven are way beyond what we know. We may need to invest a lot of time, effort, struggle and hard aches, that is what ministry is all about.

(Memory Verse)

2 Cor 4:16-18

Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we do not fixed our eyes on what is seen, but what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

James 1:2-8

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking in anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double minded man, unstable in all he does.

God of comfort

Memory Verse:
2 Cor 3-5

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. Father of compassion and God of all comfort, who comforts in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. For just as the sufferings of Chirst flows into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows.

All Memory Verses

Have decided to Keep track of what i am to lead to memorize.

Matt 28:18-20
All authority in heaven and on earth is given to me. Therefore go make disciples of all nations , baptizing them in the name of the father , the son , and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commended you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.

1 Samuel 15:22

“Does the Lord delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices
    as much as in obeying the Lord?
To obey is better than sacrifice,
    and to heed is better than the fat of rams.

Heb 11:1
Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.

Heb 11:6
And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seeks him.

2 Cor 9:6
Whoever sows sparingly will reap sparingly and whoever that sows generously will also reap generously. Each man should give what he has decided in his heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver.

2 Cor 8:9
For you know the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, though he is rich, yet for your sakes he became poor, so that you through his poverty becomes rich.

Matt 20:26-28
..Instead, whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, and whoever wants to become first must be your slave, just as the Son of Man did not come to be served but to serve, and gave his life as a ransom to many.
2 Cor 7:10
Godly sorrows brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrows brings death.

2 Cor 5:7
Live by faith not by sight.

2 Cor 4:16-18
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we do not fixed our eyes on what is seen, but what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

James 1:2-8
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking in anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double minded man, unstable in all he does.


2 Cor 3-5
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. Father of compassion and God of all comfort, who comforts in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. For just as the sufferings of Chirst flows into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows.

1 Cor 15:58
Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord will not be in vain.

John 11:25
I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies; and whoever lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe me?

1 Cor 15:33
Do not be misled. Bad company corrupts good character.

Rom 11:22
Consider the sternness and kindness of God. His sternness to those who fell, kindness to you, provided that you continue in his kindness. Otherwise you will also be cut off.

Prov 28:13-14
He who conceals his sins will not prosper ,
But whoever that confesses and renounces them will find mercy
Blessed is the man who always fears the Lord,
but whoever hardens his heart will fall into trouble.

1 Cor 14:1
Follow the ways of love and eagerly desire spiritual gifts, especially the gifts of prophesies.

1 Cor 10:23
Everything is permissible, but not everything is beneficial. Everything is permissible but not everything is constructive. Nobody should seek his own good but the good of others.

Psalms 9:4
For You have upheld my right and my cause, you sit on your throne righteously.

1 Cor 6:11
And that is some of you were. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you are justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.

Rom 5:8
But God demonstrated his own love for us in this, while we are still sinners, Christ die for us

Eph 2:8-9
For it is by grace that you have been save, though faith- and this is not by yourself, it is a gift of God, not by works, so that no one can boast.

Jesus is resurrection and life

From today's devotion on 1 Cor 15:12-33 on the resurrection of the dead

Memory Verses:
John 11:25
I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies; and whoever who lives believes me will never die. Do you believe this?

1 Cor 15:33
Do not be misled, bad company corrupts good character.

Wonderful Grace of God

 One thing true for people who loves God deeply, I believe are people who receive much grace from God. People who may have been the worst kind, but saved and transformed by the grace of God.

Luke 7:47 Therefore, i tell you, her many sins have been forgiven for she loved much. But he who has been forgiven little loves little.

Rom 15:9-10
For i am least of the apostles and do not even deserve to be called an apostle, because I persecuted the Church of God. But by the grace of God I am what I am, and his grace to me was not without effect. No, i worked harder than all of them- yet not I, but the grace of God that was with me.

I can really identify with what Paul says. Among the young adults, i am the worst, most feared and judge for who I am. But the grace and love of God gave me a new life, a life to serve him wholeheartedly.

How painful is this journey as i begin this new direction of reaching out to people and investing time on peoples life, hoping to pass on what God has pass on to me, what kor Hon have pass on to me. Cursed and persecuted by people who knew no love, be it Christians or non Christians.

As I minister to the woodlands youth, how burden I am. I feel their suffering and pain which many couldn't understand. Many have warn me, advised me, judge me for ministering to the opposite genders. As much as i have earnestly prayed, consistently look out for partners from church, there was none. What most offered are lip service. How much tears i have for these young people, how much burden i have for them, and how remorseful I felt when we neglected them for a few years. How sorry i felt when our adults and youths are not able to accept them.

Now that they fall into different kind of problems, sex, abuse, drinking, fights, abortion. I want to tell them how much God loves them, how much hope they may have in the Lord Jesus. And that is through my friendship and love for them. Giving all my best to withhold one of them to abort the child, for i know God can use it for his purpose. And surely, God desires no killing of that child! I was just as unworthy as these youths many people have perceive (ungodly, unworthy, filthy, immoral, not educated, not discipline, crooks). But because God showed me love and grace, I want them to experience this hope and joy as well.

Many times i get disappointed with many Christians, for all the laws they hold and self contentedness displayed out of self righteousness.
" If any Christian law cause me to fall short of love and saving lives in the name of God, i rather break them all. " Wolfy
And Rom 11:22 is a verse that affirms me, and keeps me on going. Its not about the program, service, rule or guideline, its all about love.


Memory Verse:
Rom 11:22
Consider the sternness and kindness of God: His sternness to those who fell, kindness to you, provided that you continue in his kindness. Otherwise you will also be cut off.

Failing the Test of Love

Today i am writing an account of what happened yesterday. An area which i need to learn and be more careful.

I was doing devotion in the morning and God lead me to memorise 1 cor 13:4-7

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered. It keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perseveres.

I though it is part of my learning journey that God wants me to memories verses. So i happily do it without knowing the application behind it.

That very evening when i was driving a group of brothers to badminton, among which a bro assumed that i will send him home. He is a brother whom ive been driving around for at least 2 years, a brother which i give my support during his bad times, when he ask for help i never hesitate to help. When he ask me to drive him home and i said that i'm going to play badminton, he got irritated and ask me to stop right in front to stop him. Basically i was very displease with his attitude towards me for treating me like a slave. He did not even ask of me to send him home in the first place, when i got fed up, he simply mention sorry and demand a forget it all. I got pissed off. I totally feel that it is not sincere and super self centered, considering the fact that ive drive him for so long and supported him in many ways. That he only considered him self. I got angry at him and tell him off. But after he apologised , he message me to claim that he has the right to be angry because i didnt tell him i'm playing badminton. And that he could have gone out with his girlfriend instead. How would one who needs a drive home, dont bother asking the driver for a ride and blames the driver for not asking him if he needs a ride home? How self centered! Will a friend do that to a friend? That's what i felt at least.

God lead me to revisit the verse today as i was doing my devotions. And for some reasons i read through what i memorised the day before. "it is not easily angered"... and i clearly hear God speaking to me. He was preparing me for what is going to happen, but i failed the test. In fact i got angry the first time for these 2 years. I prayed and ask God for forgiveness. Though he prepared, i did not make it. I felt remorseful before God. And these is a learning journey for me.

Despite that, i decided to keep my boundaries firm so that such people will not cross the line. Time and time again there will be people like these that takes advantage or abuse our kindness and friendship. Let me hear from God how to deal with such people and situation.

Memory verse for the day:
1 cor 14:1 - Follow the way of love and eagerly desire spiritual gifts...

Psalms 15

Things to learn from Psalms 15, for people who dwells in the Lord

1. To live a blameless life
2. One who speaks truth without slander
3. who does not sin against people around him and is considerate to people
4. Hates wicked but honors those who loves God
5. Keeps a promise even when it requires sacrifice
6. Lends money without benefits

Those who consistently keeps this practice, shall be firm in their faith and walk with God.

Memory Verses:
Pro 28:13-14
He who conceals his sins will not prosper,
but whoever confesses and renouces them will find mercy.
Blessed is the man who always fears the Lord,
but he who hardens his heart will fall into trouble.

Warrior for revival 1

Somethings that i wanna learn from this book "Warrior For Revival", to help me further understand my gifting and how to develop them. Also areas of my life which i need to becareful with.

Youths now are known to live without identity, principles or goals. Many Christian youths are no exception. Below are some things to take warning

Deut 18:10-13
Let no one be found you who sacrifice his son or daughter in the fire, who practices divination or sorcery, interprets omens, engages in witchcraft, or cast spells, or who is a medium or spiritist or who consults the dead. Anyone who does these things is detestable to the Lord, and because of these detestable practices the Lord your God will drive out those nations before you. You must be blameless before the Lord your God.

2 Thess 2:9, " The working of Satan with all kinds of power, signs, and lying wonders"

Emptying of our hearts can exposed our hearts to be inhabited by many devils (Matt 12:43-45)
⁴³ “When an impure spirit comes out of a person, it goes through arid places seeking rest and does not find it. ⁴⁴ Then it says, ‘I will return to the house I left.’ When it arrives, it finds the house unoccupied, swept clean and put in order. ⁴⁵ Then it goes and takes with it seven other spirits more wicked than itself, and they go in and live there. And the final condition of that person is worse than the first. That is how it will be with this wicked generation.”

Slave to sin makes us miserable. 
Rom 6:16,21
⁶ Don’t you know that when you offer yourselves to someone as obedient slaves, you are slaves of the one you obey—whether you are slaves to sin, which leads to death, or to obedience, which leads to righteousness?
 ²⁰ When you were slaves to sin, you were free from the control of righteousness. ²¹ What benefit did you reap at that time from the things you are now ashamed of? Those things result in death!

Why just we learn to give grace to  people even when they dont deserve it?
Because the Lord did that to me, i didnt deserve that grace, but he gave it to me any way- not just once, but every time. So i give the same grace i received from the Lord to others.

God permits satan to test those He planned to use (see job 1:8-12, 2:3-7; Luke 4:1)
Hence, as people went through a process of being changed by the Lord, he still struggles with sin. People don't change over night. It is a process that will take time, as repentance and the desire to know God worked in peoples heart.

 Luke 7:47 How true is this that people who given more grace for their comes to love God even more.
 ⁴⁷ Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven—as her great love has shown. But whoever has been forgiven little loves little.”

Demons are evil that protects you when you are with them, or even fight for what you want, but when you are with God, they will turn against you. Now all kind of other gods or spirits starts to make sense, they give you wealth, health, power, healing doing all kinds of miracles, but when you are with Jesus, they will turn against you immediately. Something that i once felt when i was renouncing all kinds of evil spirits from my life. I remember that fearing moment after the prayer to renounce the ungodly vibes and spirits, they were angry and surrounded me. As i look into every humans face, i felt like i saw a demon looking at me. How they strangle me in my dreams, not allowing me to speak or move, pushing me down on the beds, giving me nightmares night after nights, and waking me up at 3am all the time. Like the author of the book, i totally can identify his fights with satan.

Now i know why Kor Hon borrowed me this book. Indeed, there is many things i can learn and apply from this book. Great! I'm going to finish this book by this week!